BYE!

i left

I went to our house alone. He came over to look for me.
He was forced to sleep despite he is not tired.
He wanted to play game and I did not allow him to.
I avoided all his questions.
I did not want to tell him why I was so upset.
I shouted at him at half past 3 in the morning to sleep by my side that he went Shhh.. Shhh...
I heard the swtiches and he lied beside me.
The next moment I was in his arms and started crying. And LOUDLY.

I wanted to part from this world, and be in his arms forever. At least, for last night.

You did not know how much you hurt me and the man you chose to live with for the past 20 over years.

You said, she see a person wrongly thus married the wrong man.

What has he done wrong to deserve all this? And what has daughter done to get involved in all this shit?

I do not understand! He is 24/7 standby for you, unlike mine. He always kept quiet whenever you always reprimand him with the wrong things he had done, his failure in his past! Have you ever spare a thought for anyone around you?

You said, because he is my father, you did not want to tell me too much. So? Those are PAST! I am not interested to know. I only knew how he kept secrets from you. Hasn't he been doing well as a role of a husband now? Hasn't he been doing well in his current job? Hasn't he been giving you a humble shelter trying to protect you from problems? He is exceeding his limit because you never realise your unrealistic expectation of us is crazy!

Too bad if I have to say words to hurt you. Cos you hurt us too many times. If you still think it's just you to say these, then too bad as well. I am really mad this time!!

Can't you see his efforts? Can't you live simply? Can't you just learn the fact that we are not rich, we do not come from rich family? Too bad, you still need to work, has your salary ever spent on house instalments, PUB bills or even your personal phone bills? Does money really make you happy? Does money really make one happier?!

Yah, it's us, the Lee family who makes you suffer.
I don't want to be like you.

It's the last day of the week and I am so glad it's ending!
It's been eventful.

I did not go to Sydney due to technical problem. On the same day, I almost lost my phone that I used vulgarities on my MSN and Facebook. I even cursed and scolded the person who answered my call and kept silent. In the end, I found out it was the old taxi driver who picked it and brought it home. He asked his daughter to contact the person who dropped it and that's ME!! I was so happy when she called and we were already at M1 Paragon about to get a new SIM card. Thank you old taxi driver! I must have been a nice girl. Haha!

It's really waste of time, waste of energy and waste of petrol to lose a phone. Fortunately, I have not wasted the money yet. Phew!

I was activated for Christchurch and there goes my Narita and my shopping list! Urgh! The great thing was, I had WEEKEND spent in Singapore! 2 rounds of mahjong with yummy dessert that ends the Saturday night! I am loving it!!

The Weekend.

We invited the first batch of friends for a small house warming today. It was all well with most of the usual gang to turn up. With Wii to keep all entertained, and Baby Danielle had every uncles and aunties attention. The food was okay, and the donuts from J.co bought by Jiawei and Alvin was yummy. I did not realise Singapore sells such delicious donuts. Soft and not too sweet for my preference.

It's work again tomorrow. Schedules have been really tight and off days become minimal. I am really tired. (perhaps, situation might be different next financial year.)

Time to turn in. It's a very pack week. Oh! I am around on Wed, I want to play VB! Hope it does not rain. And yah! I went for a walk at Henderson Wave and the Treetop with Qing. It really feels great after workout. Thereafter, I had dinner with Ying and GBK, follow by a mahjong session with Yen joining us at GBK's house. I won $12!!!

Have a good week ahead everyone!!